Why cant i be strong?

Am i so terrible? I realised that i'm coward! I'm too weak and totally disappointed on myself. Even a small tiny matter i cant handle it. huh...sad~

Why cant i learn from the past mistakes?

Sorry for disappointed all of you especially YOU!
Sorry for always frustrating you!
Sorry for always give you troubles!
Sorry for always burden you!

i know i cant fulfil ur requirements but i always trying my best to do wat you requesting for. Give me some times and strength for me to move on.

原来我是个怕输的人！

刚刚读完一本小说。原来我才知道我是个怕输的人。我跟他在一起应该有七年了吧，而我从来没有对他说过我爱他，因为我觉得有些话是不用说出口的。

“ 如果你先跟男人说我爱你，他就会认为你很爱他，你爱他比他爱你更多，那就好像你输了。由于不想处于下风，所以装作不紧张他。”

这让我感觉到虽然一起七年了,坦白的程度原来那么有限，这种关系应该蛮危险吧。

或许，我应该改掉这个思想吧！

Blesss me~

Wat is my future will be? i'm so confused about it..since i'm jobless from 1 month ago. Is it so difficult to get a job for this course? perhaps i had made the wrond decision since 4 years ago. i should choose the other course instead of this Biotechnology. Feel so bek chek now...this is the 1st time i'm so keen of finding job. i don wan waste my time doing nothing at home. i wan wake up early in the morning and finish job at late evening. i wan myself to be busy so that my life wont be so dull. Will i change my thinking after i start working? hahaha..

我是爱哭鬼！

我曾认真爱着一个人，
他给我幸福的可能，
我等待着。。。。。。
快乐是因为你温柔的答复。
难过是因为你的心永远留不住。
只希望有好的笑容陪着我。